Friday, November 30, 2012

如果哪天我放弃妳了,不是我不喜欢妳,而是妳不珍惜。

如果有一天我放弃了妳
请不要怀疑我是否恋上另一个人
是因为我发觉妳不珍惜我
离开妳并非我愿意
我不想拿放弃当威胁
因为那两个字我不曾轻易说出口
因为曾经爱过......
假如有天我选择了离开
那么对不起不是想要妳的挽留
而是对妳真的死了心
有些人总是在失去之后才知道曾经的美好......
在我决定离开妳之前我会给妳好多机会
如果妳把我给妳的机会当做妳放纵的资本
有天我会真的走出来
虽然我会痛会伤心
可我了解自己
一旦爱上一个人会全心全意
可一旦我真正决定了死心
那么我只会在心里哭泣一次
然后选择忘记......
不要以为感情的事如果没有出现第三者的话很容易复合
我的字典里没有这个概念
如果我选择了放弃选择了离开
那么我便再也不会回头
在妳生命中我重要吗?
妳有在乎过我吗?
每次发给妳的信息你认真看了吗?
不接电话想过我的心情吗?
知道每次期待妳的信息而后期待落空的心情吗?
如果有天我放弃了妳
妳会偶尔想起我吗?
那些我们一起渡过的...
我那么那么爱妳,一点遗憾都没有...

也许有一种爱叫做放弃...妳

Thursday, September 6, 2012

在第一本书之前

时间久了,遗忘了
从前的感动,简单也被遗弃了

我-飛,并不是什么大作家,没有资格去评论任何一本书
我说的,写的并不会引起任何回应
我就是一个平民,像刚看完了蝙蝠侠后会随便说两句的老百姓

这本书有三年了
到最近才来到我手中
作者留笔
“在IMU里认识一位同学是容易的,得到一位朋友是困难的。‘

作者是一位我难得认识的好兄弟,有革命情感,想念以前打魔兽的情景,吃Mamak,唱K等等
他是一位在大马出世,台湾受教育后在回来上独中,然后在IMU与我相识
也许是成长的过程与道地Penang Kia的不同
很多经验,想法有很大的差距
看这本书,让我同时感受到他成长的过程与经验
也让我回忆起我的一点一滴

蓝雨-我最喜爱的一篇
那痛不欲生的感受,试问现今的年轻人,谁没有过
最让我感动的是他妈妈写给他的信
“喜欢以个人就不要让她感到困扰。她只是你生命中的插曲而已,不需要放那么多心思在她身上。”

不久以前就有个女生进入我的生命里,宗教的束缚让我蒙上极大的打击
虽然大家都还是朋友,但那淡淡的感觉还是有时会浮现
而现在有个我又猜不透的女生出现,不明白她要的是什么?是考验?是玩玩?或是想尝尝而已?不知

读了这本书让我联想到很多事情
也许作者的众多粉丝会唾弃我,咒骂我
在此向他们说声“对不起”利用了他的作品!
但还是想推荐这本

新生代帅哥医生作家-林韦地的书
《在第一本书之前》
不能说我狗腿他,只想分享我的读后感
在一次说声-对不起!!!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

猜不透...无论是她或是我的未来...我都猜不透

猜不透 妳最近是好是坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
但是他为彼此的戏上了锁
猜不透相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的是热的
如果乎远乎近的洒脱是妳要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是妳的借口
那我宁愿对妳从没认真过
到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已经不想追求
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

我的路应该怎么走我不知道
猜不透 到底我所追求的是否如此
猜不透
迷茫
最终的不解

明灯...需要...

Friday, March 11, 2011

Reborn...重生

Its been whole 10 days without any patient...any procedure any blood taking...
the most imp...without any scolding by boss...10 days leave were awesome!!!
But time flies...it has to come to an end....finally...
Next stop...O n G....the posting with birth...with ladies...with new innocent life...
Afta ten days of holiday...i clear my mind...clear my path...
Promise to myself and someone....I will do my very very best in the coming posting...in my career...
Same like this posting..born...but i will reborn...重生...
No more pathetic...no more complains (maybe once a while lah)...no more looking down on myself...
No more give up so easily...Muz be tough...
Try my very best to learn as much as possible....be humble..."sorry" and "thank you" are the imp words...and muz meant it...
凯飞...相信自己...
坚持对我来说 就是以刚克刚 就算失望 不能绝望 被火烧过才能出现凤凰

Friday, February 4, 2011

Working...工作


Its been such a long long time......
Many Many things happened....

如果 you choose a job....working 7 days 24 hours....without weekend...not even have time to go back ur lovely home for dinner...ask me...

如果 you want a job...dat makes u scolded by ur boss...demotivated by ur boss...without anyone appreciate u...ask me

如果 you need a job...where by...a tiny miny mistake...will make the whole family members hate u...scold u...and makes u guilty for ur whole life...come to me...

AND THE MOST IMPORTANT....
如果 you....losing some one u love....and kena sabotaj by other ppl...and the one u trust the most....not trusting u anymore....and watever u can do is juz keep in silence....and suffer alone by facing all the stress of ur work alone....learn from me...

I believe i complains too much...by missing her....i feel myself more miserable....depressed...
But wat can i do....生活还是得继续...

My job still has the good side....

When just a simple "good job" by picking some things that ur boss mite miss because they are busy...its motivating and nice....

When a patient grab ur hands....and thank you for taking care of him/her....u feel glad when they step out of the ward...

When u are oncall...a nice colleague will help u settle as much things as possible...u will feel great....without being stress out about the remaining things...u feel great...

A nice "Good call" will make us happy....

The money pay is not much...and reduced recently....but just hope everythg goes smoothly....

OK...i need to stop complaints...and get back to my real life...

New year period...should not complains too much...

To whoever drop by..."HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR" HUAT AH!!!

Wish everyone going to have a good life ahead and be happy, healthy alwiz!!!

GONG XI FATT CHAI!!!!!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

The end is juz the begining!!thanks everyone!!

Hereby like to thanks person below for being supportive and by my side for the 5 years stay in Sabah!!Thanks!!

1. my huzmate--Zi Han (Fat cat), Szu Mei (retarded), Joan Yau (Ursula), Xiao Peki, Ah Ping, Jamie
2. my 5th year grpmate-- Siti Nur Nasibah, Chantha Congkolnant, Cheau Foong, Connie Liew, Jeriol, Zulhaidi
3. 4th year--Aaron, Azman, Sebastian, Aizat Saat, Shea Wah, May Feng, Amy Vvc, Nor Ain Izzati, Nurul Aimi, Marne Abdullah, Zulfa
4. 3rd year--Mei Ching, Yong Guang, Haseena
5. 2nd year--Shantene, Aldrin, Ying Huei, Soo Fei, Alif Azmi, Mat Zain
6. 1st year--Abidah, Aie Wei, May Hou
7. my Pupuk Parner--Shafika
8. That alwiz lame with me and talk some stupid things in hostel or class--Shargunan, Kim, Loo
9. My ex Kingfisher huzmate--Hung ge, Kicik, Yee Mun, Rina, Kok Leong, and Ah Sau
10. My ex IMU mates that been supportive all the while--Nythia, Siow Wei, Seow Fan, Siew Li, Khai Luen, Ben, Kee Huat, Wei Khee, Woei Tee
11. Specially dedicated to Woei Tee's mum--thanks for all the wishes!!and being supportive!!!thanks!!!!!
12. my relatives in Sabah--my uncle and his family, my cousin!!
13. my relatives in Pahang--that been supporting me study medicine!!
14. my relatives in Penang!!
15. my Penang buddy and form 6 frens!!!(list too long, u all noe who lah!!hehe)
16. Madam Woo...my primary school teacher that has been thought me well!!
17. and of course...my baby's family member that supporting me!!
18. Last but not least, the person that made me wat I am today!!my parents-their effort, their money, their worries!!without my mum and dad!!I am juz a haploid cell!!!thanks mum and dad!!and my brother and sister!!!thanks!!

Sorry for those if i left out!!u all made me wat I am today!!!thanks!!!thank you so so much!!!really appreciate every person that come across my life!!

THANKS!!!wish u all the best!!and we shall meet again in future!!!